Today is the day the 9-1-1 tapes from Sandy Hook will be released.

I won’t be listening to them.  I do not understand why anyone would want to.           

Listening to the horror and terror that took place that December 14th in Newtown, Connecticut, may be necessary for law enforcement, and maybe for some mental health workers, but for the rest of us?  Listening to the slaughter of 20 little kids and the six women who tried to protect them is nothing but prurient and sadistic.  The parents and survivors have suffered enough. 

When I think of those who seek to vicariously experience the violence, I think of Psalm 8:4-5

 What is man that You are mindful of him,

And the son of man that You visit him?
For You have made him a little lower than the angels,
And You have crowned him with glory and honor. 

I struggle to see how wanting to hear these 9-1-1 tapes makes those people “a little lower than the angels”  or “crowned with glory and honor.”

 Why do some people seek out horror, mayhem cruelty by going to the site of murders, accidents, battles, or massacres?   Why do people watch NASCAR?  To view cars wasting fuel going in circles over and over ---or is it to see wrecks?  Pro-wrestling?  Football?  Hockey?  Roller-Derby?  Are viewers hoping to witness injuries or hoping to see a fight to break out?  Why watch war movies?  We know how they turned out.  Car chases and wrecks?  Why watch hunting channels?  Some people sneer at “primitive” headhunters, yet hang the heads, carcasses, or hides of dead creatures on their wall.  People spend big money to “hunt” confined animals---where is the “glory and honor”? 

 But back to Sandy Hook.  The 9-1-1 tapes will teach us what?  It is Adam Lanza who should be studied.  And yes, his mother, whom he also killed.  Why would any parent who knew their child was seriously troubled keep unsecured guns in the house?  Why did she take him to shooting ranges?  Let him stay in a room with covered windows, watching violent videos?  What was her mental status?

 She must have suffered with worry and fear over her son.  Apparently, many therapies were tried, but nothing “fixed” Adam.  I thank God our children and grandchildren are physically and mentally healthy.  I thank God Adam was not born to us.   I do not know what I would have done with or for Adam.  But, I know I would not have had unsecured guns in the same house.  And  I know I will not listen to those 9-1-1 tapes.